"I don't mean it in a bad way, but you used to be so much thinner".
These words was said by a person who hadn't met me in 5 years - since the time I was my thinnest and in my worse condition. I know this person, and I know he didn’t mean to say it in a bad way, but we have to learn to keep our mouths shut when we don’t know the history of the person we talk to. I am a lot stronger now than I used to be, so I didn't take these words personally. I know many girls and boys though, who have gone through the same or similar kind of eating disorder would have become deeply affected by words like these...
...And yes, I'm very well aware that I don't "only" weigh 5 kg more now, than what I used to do 5 years ago. I weigh about 15 KG MORE than my lowest weight. Yes, 15 kg... but I still feel confident and comfortable in my body nowadays. At least mostly. When have had eating disorders in the past, you will work with that for years and maybe a life time in different kinds of aspects. But I do feel mostly good about myself nowadays, so who cares about the weight anyway. Change your approach to yourself and stop caring what other people think about yourself. The weight is truly just a number on the scale that can’t measure your happiness or level of confidence in any kind of way.
Photo taken a few days ago. Yes, 15kg “thicker” than 5 years ago, but still a lot more happy.❤️
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